DEBRIS: Vulnerable Voices

I'm working on a new project and "Vulnerable Voices" could potentially be a title for it.  I never know titles until a project is complete.  I commute daily 1/2hr-45min. and so I began bringing along a sound recorder in attempt to capture moments.  The idea is for me to say anything and everything that comes into my mindspace.  I think often in images, so sometimes I'll explain what it is I'm seeing.  It's awkward and at times I feel too vulnerable that I do hold some things in.  Mostly out of the fear someone in particular may hear it.  Some things I think about are bigger than me and involve others that may or may not wish to reveal reality.  It's not even that I feel they would hate what I have to say, but I do know it would make them feel uncomfortable… "My Un-comforting Thoughts" .

I have a couple of telephones set aside which I believe one was my grandparents --it's pretty antique, and another one that was my parents.  I intend to ad them into "Debris"-an installation art project I'm working on with the Satellite Studio members (The Satellite Studio Artist Collective (myself, Marianne Kyryluk, Sam Shahsahabi, and Riaz Mehmood) are recipients of an OAC Visual Arts Project grant for Debris!).

I will be adding the captured moments into one or two of these phones for people to listen in on… and the interesting part will be: if I end up leaving it legible.. obviously me… or will I distort and cover up reality? This project stems from my frustration about family and people in general and how we feed into a life of Playing Pretend.  Will I continue playing along and hide myself?  Perhaps I'll use both phones, and one will be the Pretend me talking to my Grandparents, and the other will be "Real"?  Or perhaps one will only be used that has distorted moments mixed in with legible?